nurseminako (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} nurseminako) wrote,@ 2007-10-07 03:06:00 |
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Now i can't sleep and I'm worrying
I just feel really stupid for letting my weight get so out of control.
I mean, I fully intend to return to a healthy weight someday. I don't doubt that it's possible.
But here I am, 27 weeks pregnant and I failed my 1 hour Glucose test. Which means I'll have to take the 3 hour test this week to see if I have Gestational Diabetes.
If I am diagnosed, it means my baby is at risk for a variety of problems. It means I am more likely to have pre-ecclampsia or need a C-section.
OK, when I was pregnant with Ryan, I also failed the 1 hour test and then passed the 3 hour test. But by 1 hour number then was 147, and this time it's 167.
Listen, checking my blood sugars and following a strict diet, even if I need insulin to control my sugars - I can deal with that. But, I just still feel like an idiot for putting my baby and myself at risk like this because I never bothered to exercise 30 minutes a day and like to pig out at midnight.
I know, I'm a busy mom - but seriously - I have the time to exercise pretty much everyday - I just choose not to. I let myself go when it was not necessary.
OK, I should try to go back to bed now. Mikey is likely to be up by 6:30 AM (his internal wake up time has changed since he started school, even if he goes to bed later on the weekends).
I just feel really stupid for letting my weight get so out of control.
I mean, I fully intend to return to a healthy weight someday. I don't doubt that it's possible.
But here I am, 27 weeks pregnant and I failed my 1 hour Glucose test. Which means I'll have to take the 3 hour test this week to see if I have Gestational Diabetes.
If I am diagnosed, it means my baby is at risk for a variety of problems. It means I am more likely to have pre-ecclampsia or need a C-section.
OK, when I was pregnant with Ryan, I also failed the 1 hour test and then passed the 3 hour test. But by 1 hour number then was 147, and this time it's 167.
Listen, checking my blood sugars and following a strict diet, even if I need insulin to control my sugars - I can deal with that. But, I just still feel like an idiot for putting my baby and myself at risk like this because I never bothered to exercise 30 minutes a day and like to pig out at midnight.
I know, I'm a busy mom - but seriously - I have the time to exercise pretty much everyday - I just choose not to. I let myself go when it was not necessary.
OK, I should try to go back to bed now. Mikey is likely to be up by 6:30 AM (his internal wake up time has changed since he started school, even if he goes to bed later on the weekends).
